In October, I launched my pilot group for Pulling Back the Covers. It has been bumpy and we still have several weeks left to go. The learning curve during a launch is overwhelming. The universe tests our resolve to be successful.
Life has gotten so hard. There have been issues creepy up from the past. A lot of stress in many areas, and add in all the bank fraud. Then there was eclipse season on the surface didn’t mean that much, but the emotions that came with it were very personal and extra strong. Soon, we will release our podcast episode where we discuss it. For the past weeks, I have felt like I went back into the past and ripped off all the scars and exposed them. It was painful and so uncomfortable.
One night, I went to bed feeling very much like I had lost touch with reality. I woke up like a light switch had been flipped and the weight had mostly lifted. I know that this is not always how it works when dealing with something hard and that it is usually a long slow process. I am not sure why I had to endure the past again but I do know it reminded that healing takes time. It takes patience which I lack in many ways. It takes a community.
I am so grateful as we enter into this Holiday week to celebrate Thanksgiving. I have always known that I am surrounded by some of the best people in the world.
My friends who pull me back from the ledge and show up without question. My family who gives me a bop on the head. Both groups always ready to walk along side me.
Yesterday, we celebrated my Aunt Maria and Uncle Johnny’s 40th anniversary. It was a surprise party and a complete success. In the preparations leading up to it, I am reminded of just how special how family can be. Yes, we have our not great moments and miss the mark. BUT we love and love hard. Cousin time always fills my cup when I need it most. Last night, I got to have that needed cousin time, along with a lot of other family time. We laughed and danced and ate amazing food. I went home knowing there is still so much goodness in the world and I was quite blessed by my family.
Today, we recorded new episodes of Celestial Compass. We had serious discussions and not so serious discussion. Again there was laughter and cup filling time.
We are entering into my favorite time of year. The calendar is jammed packed until the New Year. It will be fun and exhausting. It will include more celebrations cousin/family time. It will include my own immediate family time. It will include friends and family time.
I would be remiss and not transparent if I didn’t mention, this year will include a lot of sadness. This past year was not an easy one with the loss of Zoie and so many others we love. No amount of fun will replace those we lost. However, I believe that we will still be able to love and through it. We will take those sad moments, honor and cherish them because they mean we loved. We will hang on to each other and hold up those who need it. If you are dealing with loss, know that you are not alone and those around you got you. It is ok for you to be where you and you don’t need a brave face for us.
If you are reading this, I hope Thanksgiving and the coming Christmas season fills you with love. Thank you for being a part of ours lives. Thank you for being you!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!